Moments of Peace.

It’s been so long, a road I did not think I could travel as I was alone, or so I thought, I never knew you were there all along helping me, saving me, protecting me, now here I am, lost and found at the same time, wondering what now. It is an impossible road still ahead of me, and no matter what it will be hard and complex, but also for the first time worth it to travel that path. It took me years, I was like a bottle of wine, bitter and unready, but with a spark of potential that needed time to come to the surface. Now I am many special things and I am proud of them and of the woman I have become because for the first time I can say it was worth it. The pain, fear, ridicule and heart break are finally forth is, I have learned what pain is and I don’t wish it on anyone anymore. For me to find you, now, here of all places is an impossibility I can’t even calculate, but there it is, there you are, how could I never have seen it before? Maybe I was just blind, I am not sure, maybe to scared is what I think, although that is not to say I am not still scared, hell I am even more terrified then I ever have been, but also I am more brave, and stronger than I ever was, I can stand up and be strong when I am needed and yet obey when the I want too because it makes my heart filled with a joy I never knew possible. I am not sure what I am, or even becoming but I am looking into the future. One step at a time and remember to enjoy the little things.